Tuesday-Not a very clever title

Tonight is the first night that I counted carbs in order to dose his insulin.
Keegan seemed jumpy at bedtime, so immediately I worry that I did something wrong.
Every mood, every MOVEMENT becomes something I watch in case I am doing something wrong.
His levels have been in the 100's all day. Normal levels are 80-180, 50% of the time, so I think that he is sitting at a good place.
The dietary counseling lasted almost 2 and a half hours.  I don't know what it is about diabetes and long doctor's appointments, but bring snacks. That's all I can say.  Honestly, after the baby is born, I might bring a flask.
I haven't had a lot of time to think about being 34 weeks, I've been too busy figuring out how many carbs there are in sweet potato fries, but maybe it's a good thing that I'm distracted. Diabetes with your five year old is a full-time job at the beginning.
Checks, insulin and food. That's diabetes in a nutshell.
My girlfriend Rebecca rallied the teaching staff and we received some really amazing gifts of money, gifts for the kids and necessities for the baby.  I have been living in this "bed-rest,  new diabetes diagnosis" bubble. Having contact with friends, seeing the work that Rebecca put in to organizing all of that was overwhelming. I am incredibly thankful, but I also feel sad, and that's probably because on a daily basis I don't like to think about what's going on with us, in too much detail..I am just living the day through doing the things I know I need to do for Keegan and Maren and for us.
I am so thankful for the support, but I am sad that we need it. Does that make sense?
I don't maybe it doesn't.
I would not wish for anyone to go through this.
Tomorrow I see Doc and we are going to have a serious discussion about just how long this pregnancy is going to go.  I SWORE I would not get induced again, but.....I am starting to think differently.
I also see Dr. Schaefer tomorrow and I am reminded that I have been med-free since May and that is pretty damn good considering what we are handling.  Baby hormones are a great great thing.
Too bad they can't be bottled and sold.
Hmmm..