"I have a favor to ask you."
Crap.
Whenever Will has a "favor to ask me" right before he leaves for work it means that I have something big to do:  go to Menards, re-roof the house, trim trees, get rid of the cats.
I just know it's going to be something huge and "manly" or unpleasant. Ugh.
"Can I take the new car to work today?"
What??  No!
"What?! No! Wait. Are you bringing it back?"
"I will bring it back."
"Then okay, today. Because I don't really need to go anywhere."
"That's really loving of you."
You know when Will got his car, I don't think I drove it for a year. In fact, I am pretty sure he hid the keys every time he came home...how is this fair?
"I just found these old running shorts. How do they look?"
"Good you should wear them more."
"I used to wear them all the time in Panama around the gardener..ahahahahahha!"
Door slam.
Door open.
"I am taking the car all week."
Why do I think I am funny. Why?

I now believe more than ever that our marriage is rock solid.
We painted Keegan's bedroom this morning.
We didn't bicker one bit.
Well, we didn't really talk.
And it's a really pretty blue. Keegan will love it!
I think it's great if you have a marriage where you NEVER bicker.
However, this is not the blog for you.
This is probably also not the blog for you if your children never whine, never make you tired, or never make you a little nuts.
Go away.
Or stop pretending.
Or at least don't tell me about it. Ahahahahhaha.
I am feeling very anxious about school starting.
I am excited for our kids.   We have some real loves coming into our class.
We also have some challenges, but we ask for those.
The kids don't make me anxious. The adults do.
Five years of ick is a lot to fix in one summer.  I am doing the best I can.  I think I am a lot better now than when I left. But I am still having to deal with things that I wish I didn't, and that's when I just have to do a lot of praying and giving it up to God.
I don't have the power to change things on my own. Wait. Stop. I don't have the power to change things. There.
So going back into that building is difficult for me.
However, I HAVE been going back a lot.
Every time I do something good happens.
Nothing big. Little things.
So I know that God is helping me to see that minute by minute I can make it.
Remember why you're there Melissa.
Live it!
I have had a lot harder obstacles than this before.  Way way worse.
If nothing else:  When God Closes a Window, He Opens A Sunroof
As long as Will isn't driving it....
Why did I have to think I was funny?
Why?????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!