Pteradactyls, Target, Pediatricians and Crying

Our first night home..3 am...bleary-eyed..with only a few hours of sleep..Will turns to me with a what-have-we done-look and announces over the cries of our 48 hour-old son: "He sounds like a pteradactyl." He does..when Keegan cries he sounds like the dinosaur from Jurassic Park..and I DON'T know how to spell it and I can't find it and I DON'T have time to look it up anywhere else right now..so deal..
On Sunday I went to Target. I did this all by myself. ALL BY MYSELF. This was the first time I had been alone since August. If you think about it, Keegan had been with me all those months. I cried.
I cry a lot right now. For no reason. I hope that it will change. I think it is a dirty rotten trick that you give birth and then YOINK your hormones go nutty..I do pretty well..in twenty minute increments.
As I walked the aisles of Target I kept looking around at everyone and thinking: "Aren't you going to SAY something? Don't I look different? I just gave birth 72 hours ago! Aren't you going to congratulate me? Don't I look SKINNY? (I don't)" BUT STILL...
I cried.
Yesterday we went to the pediatrician for the first time..Keegan weighs 4 pounds 14 ounces. I have included a picture of Will and Keegan outside the clinic (first time parents) and Will playing with Keegan at the office as we waited. It has already started. I will leave the room and come back and Will will say to me: "You know when you do _______ Keegan does _______." So obviously his son has replaced the cats as his new toy.
I have so many stories already and I hope that I have the time to get them all down..the days and nights are busy..they are..Will is home right now and it is amazing how much he helps..we are truly partners in this..it is so fun..I am so worried about doing everything right..I am not completely relaxed, but I am NOT a complete psycho either..oh boy, don't ask Will's opinion, please.
It's just that when you love a little human this much and your schedule isn't the same..it's just different..EVERYTHING revolves around Keegan..it does and that's okay, really..it's just that sleeping isn't something that is NORMAL anymore..it comes in small increments..I know we will get used to it..it's just a transition.
We have a family now and it is so wonderful..I think we are more in love now than we have ever been..that helps..now I am crying..