She will sleep for six hours and then she's wide awake...screaming. The only way she'll fall back to sleep is if she is sleeping..................with me.
Go ahead. Start judging. I know you want to. I am breaking every parenting law there is. But people, I haven't slept through the night in 14 months. If you have been in my shoes then I think you have a right to say something, otherwise, shut your cake holes, and turn out the light, so I can get some sleep. I am exhausted.
Maren has an excrutiating scream. It sounds like someone is torturing her. I cannot take it. I simply can't. I cannot be Ferberized, so it is out of the question.
If sleeping with me works right now, then that's what we'll do.
This is another phase I need to get through.
So is the beginning of the school year. It's another phase. Coming back to school is always difficult. It means a transition, and transitions are hard. It's the end of one routine and the beginning of another. Once I'm sufficiently into the routine it's fine, but easing in can be difficult.
Today was no exception.
I think I caught people by surprise, and that isn't very fun. If it's not a fun surprise.
I know that I haven't done anything wrong. On the contrary, the whole situation was out of my control, and really pretty awful. But it still was just another example of a test. God sure seems to like to test me lately.
Sigh.
At the end of the day I can be thankful for my precious babies, Will, my friends, and a God who loves me no matter what.
Tomorrow is a new day, and I'll be able to feel the breeze through the windows. That's a blessing.
Now if we can just work on the sleep thing... Maren Vada!!
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